Embracing Internal Freedom
Freedom is knowing that the answers are inside of me.
I opened a text message the other day and got triggered.
It felt like a gnarly monster climbed out of the phone and into my chest.
My first reaction was to get rid of it, to respond in a snarky way that would get it off of me. (this never works anyway)
This is a protection and I know not to follow this one. It’s gotten me into a lot of trouble in the past.
I know to sit with the trigger now.
To open to it,
get curious, feel what comes up,
love it.
I know that it’s telling me something important about myself. I am fully available to hear it. I wasn’t always.
I know now that some buried old hurt got touched and that it has zero to do with the message or the situation or person in front of me. ZERO.
It’s taken me YEARS on the mat to truly GET this lesson.
I’ve had a whole upgrade on how I interact with my hurt feelings.
My attention on the hurt is enough…it’s actually everything.
My practice is to follow the breadcrumbs of what is revealed to me. Give the hurt part of me tons of love and allow it to naturally unfold.
