S T I L L N E S S

Embracing Duality and the Power of the Pause

S T I L L N E S S

It’s what I really needed after a month long holiday with my family in Asheville. So much goodness to digest, so much togetherness, expansion and newness. So much joy.

The universe gives you what you can’t always give yourself. What you can’t always see.

I hit a wall packing up. I felt irritable, the whole thing was exhausting me and I felt pissed off. I knew it was time to move on, but couldn’t see the next thing. I couldn’t see that I needed to pause and rest, digest. I was suddenly disinterested in our trip to Colorado, California and all the places in between. The plan felt more draining than fun. I was full.

There we were packing the car, me in tears. I was able to find the place in myself where I could commit to our next stop: Nashville, and that is all I could commit to.

Meanwhile, the universe threw us a sideways stroke that I didn’t expect.

Our dog was suddenly not well. What began as him being lethargic and losing weight over the past few months, which we attributed to our traveling and the changing environments, suddenly felt very different.

I looked at him on Monday and it landed in my body: he is dying.