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To The WomanWho Fooled Around with My Boyfriend at the Bike Path
I Forgive You
I used to hate you.
I used to daydream about the day he would cheat on you with some other woman. And then you would know the pain that I felt. In my vision, you would weep with pain and I would finally feel vindicated.
I wanted to lash out at you so many times but I always stopped myself, mostly out of ego and pride. I could feel how nasty I wanted to be towards you — how twisted and sinister my words would be. Honestly, I was desperate to rid myself of the pain.
The last time I texted you, I was angry. I told you that when I was at my most vulnerable, you were not a friend to me —instead, you were the opposite — you stepped on me and undermined me. You made it so much harder for me back then. I felt really alone.
The truth is, I know that I basically handed him to you.
I encouraged him to enjoy you in our open relationship. It felt great to be so generous with my man. But I got really confused because that day at the bike path, you TOOK him. I was angry because I had been generous with you and I felt taken advantage of.
I really could have used a friend at that time. It left me feeling righteous.
